Comfort

Today I was really missing some of my comforts.  I feel like I am very much settled into Seattle but I do not yet have those comforts in place.  Those things or places or people that you can always go to when things are a little rough.  Tonight was kind of an awkward night (basically all my fault because I made things really awkward, I hate when I do that, it was one of those where in my head I was like why I am doing this? but I didn't know how to change what I was doing, so ridiculous Jill).  Anyway, I felt just really uncomfortable and like I didn't really know what to do or what to say.  And I really just wanted something comfortable, something that I know really well, or someone who knows me really well.  Of course I wouldn't change where I am and what I'm doing at all.  And I am growing so much by not having those comforts and having to deal with whatever.  But sometimes you just really need something comfortable.

So on my way home as I was walking over the overpass that is right near my house, I just stopped walking and stared for a bit.  I really like that overpass because there are TONS of cars speeding under me, there is usually a lot of traffic also, and there is a great view of the skyline.  I'm not sure why, but walking over that bridge I really feel Seattle.  I don't know if that makes sense, but I don't think I can articulate it any better.  I just really feel the city.  Anyways, I stopped on this overpass that I really like and just stood there for a good while.  Thinking or whatever but mostly just taking in the cold night air and the few stars and the bright city lights.  I could hear the cars below.  It was peaceful.

And, it's all good.  I worked out the awkward situation and we're all good.  But, yeah, comforts, I miss them a bit.